a grumpus kind of mood

i use the term grumpus loosely at the moment...simply because at any moment i could go from grumpus to full blown bitch mode.  which wouldn't help anyone in my general vicinity.  i could use the excuse that i'm just tired, but that would be just a slight fabrication of the truth.  in fact, i'm pretty well rested having gone to bed super early last night.  so much so that when the dog woke me up at quarter to 5 this morning i debated getting up and doing day 2 of insanity (more on that later).  but i was in a pissy mood and preferred the warmth of my bed to 45 mins of sweating my nonexistent balls off.

now we all know the reason behind my current state of mind, and one glance at my calendar will confirm it but i find no reason to state it so bluntly.  certainly doesn't help that it will be raining all day.  and perhaps a good portion of my grumpiness is residual from last night.  i refuse to air it all out for the world to see but essentially my evil alter ego got to me again.  unfortunately the one person who had helped me work through this before now has about a million of her own problems and i hate to lean on her, when she needs to lean on me.  logically, i know better. however, what i know conflicts with what i feel.  it's a work in progress that i thought was a disappearing issue, however it's become apparent in the last couple weeks that indeed is not the case. i think i need to meditate soon.

i blasted through this mornings routine since i pouted in bed much later than when i should have gotten up.  seemed like a good option at the time.

in other news yesterday i completed day one of:

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i should add as a disclaimer, i'm not doing the diet portion of the insanity challenge and in no way do i expect to have the kind of results that are posted on that page.  especially considering i won't be doing the continuous 60 day workout challenge either.  but i was able to copy it from my cousin (ssshhhhhh...) so i figure why not give it a shot.

OBLI..QUOI??

day one was just a fit test.  yes, just... but seeing as i don't have the upper body strength to  even do *one* push up, i couldn't even do the second to last 'exercise' which resembled something of a push up/jumping jack cross.  and since it was do as many reps you can in this small amount of time, i felt rather lame when the people in the video were doing like 80 reps. actually, the number of reps they did compared to the number of reps i struggled to do for the other exercises varied drastically  but came as no surprise since i haven't worked some of those muscles in months or even...ever.

i'm sore all over today...the kind of sore that tells me i just did something to confuse my body in all sorts of ways.  the kind of sore i was when i first went snowboarding, minus the bruises. the kind of sore that makes things fun.  i wont be able to do day 2 of shaun t's insanity challange today, but i will after work tomorrow.  at least, i intend to.