What I'd do with $500 Million

Hi, my name is MsTsa... and I'm a shopaholic...

Which wouldn't be an issue if I won the $500Mil pot playing the lottery.  Here's my shopping list:

1. Buy an island, preferably in the South Pacific - And then plan on renting it out. When the money runs out I'll need an income since clearly, I will not be working anymore.
2. Buy a boat...to get to my island
3. Buy a sea plane...to get to my boat
4. Buy an Aston Martin...to get to my sea plane.
5. Build vacation home in Tuscany
6. Build my baby boy his own Disney World.

Boom. I win.

I'm sure I'll come up with more later, but I haven't won yet so let's not get our hopes up too high. Hahahaha.

Rollercoaster

Up and Down and Around again
Somewhere in the middle every Now and Then
Shattered, Assembled, Glued
Hope and Faith Renewed
Like a song on Repeat
Broken Pieces at my Feet
Pick it up One, Two, Three
Heart and Mind disagree
Waiting for the end of this Ride
Waiting to get to the other Side
Looking Forward to Looking Back
Only seeing the remaining Crack
Wishing, Wishing on a Star
Promises made from afar
Up and Down and Around again
Somewhere in the Middle every Now and Then
Knick Knack, Patty Whack
Give this Bitch a Bone

now you're just somebody that i used to know

you can get addicted to a certain kinda sadness, like resignation to the end, always the end

amazing cover by walk off the earth. oh the talent.

burn

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Que Sera Sera

I had a dream of you and me
walking on the beach hand in hand
I was yours and you were mine
As far as I could see
our footprints trailed behind
unmarred by the swirling sands of time
But when I woke
and the dream broke
At first I was a mess
left with an emptiness
Then it felt bittersweet
as my tears kissed the sheet
heartbroken, all alone
feathered edges of such dreams gone
Yet my strength hasn't left
as it has before
I'm still here, I'm still me
So I'll let it go, and let things be

New motto...que sera sera.  What will be, will be.

Gaining Perspective

i once was blind but now i see...

I've made a ginormous leap towards the quest for happiness. Call it what you will but the addition of zoloft has thinned out the dark tentacles of depression clinging to my soul.  But with this new-found content state I've been able to think more clearly about the mess of thoughts in my mind.  The most progress would be the barrier I had with trying to please everyone, being afraid to disappoint people.  I'm not sure what it is, perhaps the internal change in me that came with motherhood, but I find that I'm not afraid of that anymore.  Or at least, not AS afraid of it.  If they don't like it, they can deal with it on their own terms.