stuck in my head all day...

pop stars unite...

...and sing your heart out.

Havin' a bad day Doug

If you've ever watched the movie 50 First Dates, you'll know what I'm referring to. If not, here's a clip of the scene.

Essentially, Lucy the main character who had an accident and can forever only recall her life up to that day, finds out that she's being deceived every day into reliving the same day, every day.  I love this movie and have seen it repeatedly. In short, nothing quite describes how I'm feeling right now than that simple phrase.  'Havin' a bad day Doug'...

Today, after several days of blind euphoria, I have crashed.  I was desperately hoping to get through this week in ignorant bliss, just until I can get to go on my vacation and see my sorority sisters and my cousin out in San Francisco.  Just until I could get away and relax and spend time to myself.   I almost made it....I leave tomorrow.  But alas, my thoughts and emotions have broken through the glass wall I tried so desperately to erect.  Its an unrelenting torrent of unspoken words and memories.  I'm trying to convince myself that everything will turn out ok, that things will be different, that I can be stronger, better.  But needless to say, I'm finding it a difficult task today.  I'm falling apart and I've got nothing and no one to hold me together. ::head meet desk::